My first “new mom” freak out

I should’ve known it was coming! LJ is just over 4 weeks and I haven’t done it yet - but I should’ve known it was coming! That’s right - my first “new mom” freak out!! I had just come upstairs and out LJ to bed in his bassinet. He’d been sleep for about 1.5 hours so I knew the bassinet wouldn’t last long (secretly waiting for him to wake up so I could snuggle my little cuddle bug!). Well it happened; he started stirring and fussing and woke up. When I went to pick him up his back was soaking wet. Naturally, I checked his pamper to make sure it hadn’t leaked - then I started freaking out! LJ got his one month shot today and the one thing they precautioned was to call if he developed a fever. I had already prayed for him a couple times earlier, but honestly his sweaty back has me thinking worse. I went to his nursery to grab a new shirt and the thermometer, then came back to my room and woke up my husband. Emotions still at bay, but slowly rising. We checked his temperature under his arm and the result was right in normal range; about 95 degrees. At this point LJ was crying, probably a little cold and ready to be sleep. My husband cradled him and calmed him, then a ran to phone a friend...my mom! I told her what happened and she didn’t seem phased at all. She too was confident that he was probably just hot and to find a lighter sheet to swaddle him in. Also noted the 95 degree weather we had to today and how heat rises. I had just turned the air down before coming upstairs, so it’s completely possible that our room was still quite warm. After ending the call I wanted to check his temperature again, and it was just as consistent and normal as the first test. Suddenly, the flood gates opened and I couldn’t contain my emotions another second! I realized in that moment just how much a truly love my new baby. It’s overwhelming; unexplainable. Here this cute little “mini me” is that relies solely on you - the last thing you want to do is fail them in any way. Holding LJ in one arm, my sleepy husband came and put his free arm around me, kissed my forehead and reassured me that our now- peacefully sleeping son was just fine.

I remember seeing my dad cry one time when my brother got into a minor fender bender accident. Through his teary red eyes he said “I don’t know what i would do if something happened to one of you guys”...Surely my dad was overreacting - I couldn’t be convinced otherwise! I thought ‘what’s the big deal?! You just got off the phone with him, and he’s still flying in town tomorrow!’  Well after tonight, I totally get it. Just the thought of my son even being too hot brought me to a river of tears. 

I write this holding my beautiful little son in my arms. Gods gift is truly like no other!  Has anyone else experienced anything similar?! 

Signed,

An Overjoyed New Mom!